Tuesday, April 26, 2011

It's a Good Day!

It's a good  AWESOME day when the lactation nurse looks at you and says "She has gained almost 2lbs in 3 weeks!"

YAY!!

Scarlett went from 10lbs 7oz on April 5th to 12lbs 2oz today April 26th!!

She only took in a little over 2oz, but she is just so busy and doesn't nurse well around all of that commotion. So after I left I parked the car and she ate really well!

It's been a Great Day!!!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Someday

Being a Mom with a baby who doesn't breastfeed well is taxing. Somedays I seriously feel as if I am going crazy and all I do is worry about her weight and my milk supply. I try to keep a positive outlook, but somedays it is just about all I can do to make it through the day. Somedays, well okay if I am honest, most days I dislike breastfeeding so much. I dread having to feed her sometimes because my nipples are so sore, and I hate myself for dreading it. After 4 1/2 months of this I am tired. I am tired of nursing for 30min, bottle feeding, then pumping. I am tired of never being able to go out anywhere or get anything done because my whole day is spent feeding her. Somedays I wish I didn't care so much about breastfeeding so I could just give her formula.

However, I just need to keep reminding myself that someday she will be so much healthier because of my choice to keep breastfeeding. I am learning that in order to be a good parent you sometimes need to sacrifice your needs for the needs of your child.

I am hoping that someday it will get better and she will just latch herself on, nurse, and be done. But even if that never happens and I have to continue what I am doing, I know that I will never look back and regret my choice to continue breastfeeding.

The Best Part of Waking up...



is seeing Daddy and baby all snuggled up!

Four Month Checkup

Scarlett is up to 11lbs 13oz and 24 in long. She is still in the 10-15th percentile for weight and just above the 25th percentile for height. She gained a whole 1lb this last month. Not to much, but considering I didn't supplement to much this last month it is a success. The nurse practitioner said she would like to see her gain a little bit more, but is not overly worried because she is right on track with all her developmental milestones. It is hard not to worry when you have a small baby, but I just keep telling myself she looks healthy, is pretty content most of the time, and her dad is small too. Plus she has never lost weight, she is just gaining really slowly. I really wanted to do baby led weaning, but if she can't keep her weight up I will have to just follow La Leche League's recommendations for introducing foods.

Breastfeeding Update

So... Where to begin. Many things have changed since the last update. Things were going slightly better, then teething entered the picture and Scarlett began to chomp again. So once again my nipples are sore and the all purpose nipple ointment has made its way to my nightstand. And much to my dismay, my milk supply took a plunge once again. Since the More Milk Plus Special Blend wasn't cutting it anymore I decided to use the prescription for reglan that the lactation nurses at Innovis ordered for me. I have been taking it for about a week with no side effects yet and a small increase in my milk supply. I am considering ordering domperidone online. Domperidone is similar to reglan, but without all the side effects.  I am also back to pumping more frequently after her feedings and supplementing with the bottle. I have seriously considered exclusively pumping, but am going to give it til 6 months before I consider going that route. Some days she does better than others and I am thankful for the good days because they keep me going!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Oh Sleep, How I Do Miss You!

Sleep. One of my favorite words! To say I love sleep is a understatement. Before I had Scarlett I would usually sleep at least 8-10 hours a night, and loved it. Actually one of the things I worried about most during my pregnancy was not about the birth, how to take care of  the baby, breastfeeding, etc., but was how I was going to survive on no sleep. I am so thankful now that Scarlett pressed on my bladder constantly throughout my pregnancy making it impossible to sleep for more than 3 hours without running to the bathroom. This helped prepare me somewhat for the little sleep I would receive during those first few weeks when Scarlett was colicky and had her days and nights mixed up.

Anyways, on to the real story. Just recently Scarlett has been waking up throughout the night to feed. This came as a surprise to me since she has slept at least 5-6 hours during the night since she was 4 weeks old. Very unusual I know, but I so glad that when I was dealing with all of the breastfeeding issues I was getting some sleep. I think that she may either be going through a growth spurt, be to distracted to eat well during the day, or since she is becoming more active using up more calories.

So here comes the advice from many well meaning people. Just give her a little cereal before bed and she will stay fuller longer and sleep. Yes, however, the reason she would stay fuller longer is because her body is not ready to digest anything but breastmilk and I will be depriving her of vital nutrients. Also, by introducing solids before 6-7 months you increase your baby's chance to develop food allergies. You see a baby's a baby's gut is considered open, allowing large nutrients such as proteins to enter the blood stream directly, until around 6 months. This is how God designed it so that the antibodies in Mom's milk can pass into baby's bloodstream providing passive immunity. However, when you give baby solids before their gut closes the large proteins from other foods can pass into their blood stream predisposing them to allergies.

So anyways, since Scarlett has decided to wake me up throughout the night disrupting my precious sleep, I have decided to look at the positives in the situation. Plus, I believe part of being a Mom is sacrificing your needs, such as sleep, for the needs of your child.

1.) Studies have shown that infants who sleep to deeply are at greater risk for SIDS. James Mckenna, a professor of anthropology at the University of Notre Dame has been studying infant sleep patterns and found that infants who co-slept spent less time in deeper states of sleep. Therefore he states sleep interruptions in the early months may be a protective factor against SIDS.
 http://www.nd.edu/~jmckenn1/lab/articles/Cambridge%20Handbook%20of%20Child%20Development.pdf

2.) She eats better at night and maybe it will help her gain some more weight.

3.) She may need the attention or comfort of nursing, which is fine with me. Nursing isn't just about physical nourishment. It is also a nurturing act!

So in the end I may not get to enjoy my beloved 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep for awhile, but she is so worth it!

Wordless Wednesday: Grandpa's girl


I love watching my Dad with Scarlett. He is so gentle with her and she just LOVES him!

She is so blessed to have such wonderful, loving grandparents!

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Grandma Approves

A few nights ago I went to my Aunt's 50th birthday party and of course took Scarlett with. I am not really shy about feeding in public, but I usually use a cover. However, I had forgotten my cover at home and Scarlett was getting pretty cranky. So I grabbed the next best thing to a cover, her blanket. Much to my dismay Scarlett was not cooperating and did not want that blanket covering her. So I just tried the best I could and hoped not too much was showing. I wasn't sure how my family would react since I know many of them did not breastfeed, so when my great grandma leaned over to talk to me I was expecting the worst. My great grandma is a pretty candid person and she tells you exactly what she thinks. I guess she has the right to, I mean she is 94 years old! So here she is leaning over to talk to me and I am just sweating bullets which is probably due to the heat Scarlett and the blanket are putting off and the fact I am nervous about what my great grandma is about to say to me. I figured she would tell me I need to cover myself up more or I really shouldn't be nursing in front of all these people.

 But no, much to my surprise she leans over and says 

"I think it is so wonderful you are nursing your baby."

My first thought was "Wait. What.  Did Grandma just say that?"

My second thought was "Wow. How awesome!"


That minute I quit being shy about feeding her, and she got a big gulp of milk because I let down :) If Grandma approves, who cares what anyone else thinks :)